Waiting to hear if I will get disability is probably one of the most stressful things I have ever gone through.  I know that it is responsible in a large part for an increase in my depression and anxiety. One of the things that has me stressed out in particular is that my Rheumatologist has STILL not gotten in the paperwork that was sent to him.  He’s had it for over a month!  Today my husband actually spoke to him and he told him that he has fifty patients needing disability paperwork.  FIFTY?  I am hoping that is an exaggeration.  I have called his office four or five times, he’s gotten repeated letters from Disability and now my husband has called.  I don’t know what else to do.

I have worked too hard on my disability application only to be turned down because of something out of my control.  I included paperwork from him when I applied for disability, I can only hope that it is enough.  But he is my Rheumatologist and most of my problems are Rheumatological!  I know doctors are busy but this is MY LIFE!  Plus I gave him tons of information, I don’t think I could have made it any easier.  I’d love to find a new doctor but good Rheumatologists are hard to find around here.

I just have to hope that what I did, how specific I got was enough and that my two other doctors who have gotten in their paperwork along with letters from former co-workers and friends will be enough to show that I am credible.  Getting disability for my family would be the first step in turning our lives around and make me feel that I am providing for my family once again, even if it is a lot less money.

With what my Disability contact said I will probably hear right around New Year’s.  It’s going to hugely impact how our 2010 will be.  I’m really ready for something positive to happen for our family.