Weekends with my son home all day are hard, but a three day weekend is close to death! Okay, not literally.  I love him SO MUCH but his boundless energy drains me so.  To make matters worse, we have NO plans for the holiday.  These are the times when being far from family and friends is really hard; no barbecues, no picnics, nothing.

I’m always reading articles about cheap things to do with your kids, but most of them include backyards and we live in an apartment.  It would be so easy to have a yard with a swing set or a little pool for Tyler.  Whenever we go to a park to picnic, I’m tired before I even get there with all the preparation I have done.  And going for a hike in the woods is impossible for me.

I feel better when we can get out.  Cooking breakfast, lunch and dinner for Tyler makes me feel so down.  It is only a reminder of how cramped we are, like the walls are closing in.  But being out involves money, something very dear to us right now.

Last weekend was the first time Tyler said, “I want to go outside”.  He normally seems content to either watch t.v., read or play inside.  It makes me feel so badly to tell him, “Mommy cannot do that right now” or “Mommy can’t play with you right now” or “Mommy needs to take a nap”.

I know there are plenty of sick moms out there who have it far worse than I do.  I guess I’m just throwing myself a pity party for the Memorial Day holiday weekend.