Christmas Whine

How was your Christmas? Mine was a mix of good and bad. Besides my chronic challenges I had a miserable cold and had somehow managed to strain my back. I was in a lot of pain, and walking, even sitting, was absolute agony.

If it wasn’t for Jacques, I think Christmas would have been quite bleak. He did absolutely everything; cooked, shopped, wrapped gifts, all while I just laid in bed or managed to make it over to the couch.

We got the tree up on the 23rd, the latest I have ever put up a tree and that day Jacques was still buying lights of which were slim to none. He first came home with lights with white wiring that would not do for a green Christmas tree. He was able to return them and got white lights the color that makes me think I am living in an office they are so bright white.

I need sunglasses for this tree!

I did add five new ornaments this year to my all cat-themed Christmas tree, one of which was this Caribbean pink kitty:




And there’s always my all cat Nativity scene:



I don’t know what was wrong with the mail this year but three of Tyler’s gifts didn’t come and he told us it was a great Christmas anyway. I’m so proud of him!

I’ll end with a picture of him putting the cat angel on the tree. No pictures of myself to put up here as I wasn’t wearing a bra on Christmas morning and it showed.

Hope your Christmas was a Merry one!

It’s never too early to start thinking about the kids for next Christmas! Check out this gift guide by My Kid Needs That.

Health and Holiday Update

So I am still experiencing nausea with a low grade fever. You can also add to that periods of excessive sweating and mega thirst and urination. The thirst and urination could be blamed on high blood sugar, except my blood sugar levels are normal when I test them.

I went to see my Gastroenterologist and she said she didn’t think my gallstone could be causing my symptoms. She ran blood and urine tests which came back normal and she also ordered a HIDA scan which would test how my gallbladder was functioning. A few days later she called to say she was surprised to find anything wrong but my gallbladder was indeed functioning at a slower rate than normal. The normal range starts at 35 and mine was at a 24. She suggested I consult with a surgeon but she said, “I don’t know, it’s like 50/50 this is the cause of your symptoms”.

I see the surgeon mid-January but I also made appointments with my Rheumatologist and Gynecologist and will make one with an endocrinologist, leaving no stone unturned. I don’t want to have my gallbladder removed if it’s not the cause of my symptoms!

A lot of my symptoms can be explained by Lupus but I can’t get in to see my Rheumatologist until March! How can I live like this for that long, or even delay surgery that I might need? I will try to see if I can get in sooner on a cancellation.

I felt okay for Christmas and Tyler, Grant, Jacques and I were all able to have a good time. Tyler liked all of his gifts plus the cash we gave him. I guess he is getting to be that age! This was his first year that he didn’t believe in Santa Claus but he was still excited!

The next day I was sick as a dog. Tyler was very understanding but I don’t like him playing video games all day while I just lay in bed. I want him to have a decent winter break with fun things to do. If I feel well enough later today we are planning on going to a movie. Sometimes I feel okay but after a shower the nausea comes, maybe because I am upright and moving about, I don’t know.

If I don’t write again, hope you all have a Happy New Year!

Tyler with his favorite toy!

Tyler with his favorite toy!

The Worst Gift I Ever Received

I am taking part today in Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop.

Prompt 4. Best or worst gift you’ve ever received.

It was the Christmas season of 1983, the year Cabbage Patch Kids were so hot people were fighting each other for them. I had just turned 13,
but I thought they were so cute and I wanted one and so did my best friend “Jennifer”. My parents knew I wanted one but were not so optimistic. They just weren’t the types to fight the crowds for a doll.

But one day under the tree there was a wrapped box that could easily have fit a Cabbage Patch Kid. Jennifer had a similar box under her tree too. “Your parents got you a Cabbage Patch Kid!, she said. I told her I wasn’t sure because my younger brother had a package similar in shape and size. “Maybe they got him one too!”

The guessing frenzy continued until Jennifer and I were convinced that the box held a doll. I could hardly wait until Christmas morning!

When the day arrived my brother and I saved our biggest boxes for last. I wondered what he or she would look like. We opened our gifts and they were…sleeping bags!Sleeping bags??? This made absolutely no sense because we weren’t even campers! I stonily thanked my parents for my presents.

Then the phone rang, it was Jennifer, screaming that she had received a boy Cabbage Patch Kid. She was describing him to me and smelling that sweet baby smell the dolls had back then. “Did you get one?”, she asked. I told her no and told her what I did receive. She told me she was sorry but she couldn’t help talking about her gift. The tears rolled down my face as she went on and on.

Looking back, I guess I felt that Jennifer’s parents loved her more because they were willing to do anything to make her Christmas wish come true. And I know I am the type to go crazy to get my child what he wants for Christmas.

It all seems kind of silly now. Eventually I would wind up with SEVEN Cabbage Patch Kids. Currently I am cleaning up some now and getting ready to donate them. Maybe I can make some little girl or boy happy this Christmas, even though it isn’t the hottest toy of the year!


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The Awful Truth

A couple of weeks ago eight and a half year old Tyler asked me if the Tooth Fairy was real. After much stalling and deliberation I decided to tell him the truth and he was okay with it. He didn’t ask me about the Easter Bunny or Santa Claus and I was relieved.

But this weekend he asked me if the Easter Bunny was real and I decided to tell him the truth. “You’re the Easter Bunny?!”, he asked incredulously. And then, “Is Santa Claus real?” and I told him that yes, Santa Claus was real. At first he said okay but then after a minute of deliberation he asked, “Is Santa Claus really real, mom?” I hesitated and he said, “If he’s not real, I’ll be okay with it”, shrugging his shoulders. I looked at him and it was like I flash-forwarded to him as a teenager. It was just the way he looked and the way he said it. He was so mature. I told him that Santa wasn’t real either. “You mean you’re Santa???!!!” At first he looked sad. I told him that Santa Claus was based on Saint Nicholas and that we could read about it if he was interested but he wasn’t.

Later he asked me, “Was Santa Claus alive when you were a kid, did you get presents from Santa?”, and I told him that Saint Nicholas lived hundreds of years ago.

I think I was more upset about telling him Santa and the Easter Bunny weren’t real than he was; that loss of innocence. Of course, now that he knows that I am the Easter Bunny he told me the toys and candy he wanted for Easter and it sounded like a Christmas list!

Most of the magic of Easter and Christmas is gone for Tyler now, never to be the same, but I’m glad he was grown up enough to take it alright.

Does your child still think the Easter Bunny and Santa Claus are real?


Christmas at Our House 2014

We had a very nice day yesterday. Life is far from perfect but I am grateful for so many blessings; a roof over my head, enough food to eat and my unique family that consists of Tyler, Jacques, and Grant. I feel fortunate that Grant and I get along so well that he is able to watch Tyler open up his presents and spend the day with us, and that I have a boyfriend that is okay with it. I am also grateful for our two cats, Max and Betty. I hope you enjoy these pictures of Christmas at our house!

Tyler’s top gifts were a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles playset, Zombie Trash Packs and Mutant Mania, a make your own mutant boxing game. Tyler got me a snowman mug with teas and hot chocolate in it, and a candle. Jacques and I don’t do big gifts, we don’t have the budget. I got a high quality can opener that hopefully will work and a beautiful leopard spotted ornament for my all cat ornament Christmas tree. Not on time for Christmas, but he is also getting me a device that will allow me to stream to my t.v.

How was your day?

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