Longing for Normalcy

I wish things would settle down a bit so I could do some regular things, such as keeping a regular blog! Lately I feel like I don’t even have time to eat.  Due to some insurance changes, Grant has had a tough time finding a new Gastroenterologist as he suffers from Crohn’s Disease.  On Thursday night he called the ambulance because his pain was just too bad.  They admitted him but released him on Sunday. Grant  is one of those people who hates hospitals; he get stir crazy there.  He is stabilized and is following up with his doctors.

Francesca was able to stay with me to help with Tyler, who seemed to take daddy’s hospital stay pretty well.  I told him that he was in a hospital like Curious George has been in and that they were going to make daddy’s tummy feel better.  I am glad Grant is finally getting to the help he needs.

I feel like we are so different from other families.  When I am with other people and they talk about their jobs or their homes, it feels so foreign to me.  I long to be a part of that crazy life of a working mom and all the energy that comes with it.  Kind of like, “I don’t know how our family does it, but we do it”!  I long for a routine of a full-time job that is stimulating, and fun weekends with my child and vacations that we can afford.

When you have chronic illness, life is so uncertain.  You don’t know whether your health will improve, stay the same or get worse.  It’s the same thing with your finances.

Right now our family could use some stability and normalcy right now.  Stop the roller coaster, I want to get off!

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About mamasick

Emily Cullen is a pen-name. I suffer from chronic illnesses and diseases which include Bipolar Disorder, Asthma, Diabetes and Fibromyalgia. I had battled Lupus and Rheumatoid Arthritis but there is no longer evidence of me having these diseases and my Rheumatologist has declared them to be "burnt out" of my system. I am separated from my husband, “Grant”. Our son, “Tyler” was born in September of 2006 and suffers from tics and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and is delayed in fine and gross motor skills. In my blog I seek to let sick moms know that they are not the only ones going through this, and to educate people about what can happens when one becomes catastrophically ill. I also strive to break down stereotypes of what a “Welfare Mom” is like. Anything that I have gone through due to being sick, is written on the pages of Mama Sick.

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