My Son Just Made Me Cry…Happy and Sad Tears

This past week Grant went to the ER with a flare-up of his Crohn’s Disease. He was released but being sick before and after has put a lot of extra stress physically and mentally on me. (Don’t feel guilty, Grant.)

I am more exhausted than ever but today Grant and I were determined to take Tyler to the park, even though I was wondering how the Hell I was going to make it through the day. Then Grant told me he is just not feeling well enough go. I told Tyler that it was just going to be him and I at the park today and he started yelling, “I don’t want to go to the park, I don’t want to go out!” When I asked him why he said, “Because if Daddy can’t come I don’t want to go without him. I just want to stay here with Mommy and Daddy, and be all together.”

Too much wisdom to come out of a three-and-a-half-year-old. I feel so guilty that taking Tyler anywhere is a struggle for Grant and I but I was so touched that Tyler didn’t care about going out today, that he just wants to be with us.

He is such a special little boy. I am still crying my happy and sad tears.

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About mamasick

Emily Cullen is a pen-name. I suffer from chronic illnesses and diseases which include Bipolar Disorder, Asthma, Diabetes and Fibromyalgia. I had battled Lupus and Rheumatoid Arthritis but there is no longer evidence of me having these diseases and my Rheumatologist has declared them to be "burnt out" of my system. I am separated from my husband, “Grant”. Our son, “Tyler” was born in September of 2006 and suffers from tics and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and is delayed in fine and gross motor skills. In my blog I seek to let sick moms know that they are not the only ones going through this, and to educate people about what can happens when one becomes catastrophically ill. I also strive to break down stereotypes of what a “Welfare Mom” is like. Anything that I have gone through due to being sick, is written on the pages of Mama Sick.

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