So Did I Mention I Turned 40 Last Week…

…and it didn’t really make a bump in the road of my life because I have bigger problems than turning 40, right?  My cat is not eating and on Friday we have an appointment with the vet and I feel she is going to recommend we put her down.  There has just been so much stress going on lately.  As I am waiting for a decision to be made on my disability I have been given more paperwork which I did manage to finish.  If I hadn’t done so much work prior to applying I would have really been in trouble. Even so I could not complete it on time, although I did call a nice representative and let her know, and she was okay with that.

A doctor that has only seen me twice since I declared my disability date of March in 2008 called me and said that in her opinion I did NOT qualify for disability based on the work I did. First of all, she has only seen me twice and has no idea how I function on a daily basis and how my life has been affected.  Second of all, just because my prior job was a desk job does not mean I can stay awake, get dressed for it and not find it painful.  It isn’t just the forty hours at your desk (not that I think I could do that) but getting up at 6:00 a.m., getting my son and I ready for the day, coming home, making dinner, bathing him, doing dishes at 10:30 at night and going to bed at 11:00, if I am lucky.  It was hard enough doing that while I was well and I am sure most well women would agree with me!

The representative told me that one doctor not filling out the paperwork would not hurt my case.  I have paperwork filled out from doctors who have seen me on a monthly basis for more than a year, those are the doctors who should count.  Anyway, this doctor really threw me and has just made me so scared that I will not get disability.

And she called me on my birthday!  We didn’t have enough money to do much but Tyler made me a card which made me cry of course, and he gave me the Willow Tree figure that he had broken when he was smaller.  Grant gave me a clothing store gift certificate.  I wasn’t looking for anything for my birthday, just wishing that my family’s life would improve.  I wasn’t really depressed about turning 40, just wishing things were better for us all and that we would have a financial situation where we were comfortable enough doing something special as one usually does on the “big” birthdays.

So that’s where I’ve been.  Tyler had a great Halloween and I will post pictures soon!

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About mamasick

Emily Cullen is a pen-name. I suffer from chronic illnesses and diseases which include Bipolar Disorder, Asthma, Diabetes and Fibromyalgia. I had battled Lupus and Rheumatoid Arthritis but there is no longer evidence of me having these diseases and my Rheumatologist has declared them to be "burnt out" of my system. I am separated from my husband, “Grant”. Our son, “Tyler” was born in September of 2006 and suffers from tics and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and is delayed in fine and gross motor skills. In my blog I seek to let sick moms know that they are not the only ones going through this, and to educate people about what can happens when one becomes catastrophically ill. I also strive to break down stereotypes of what a “Welfare Mom” is like. Anything that I have gone through due to being sick, is written on the pages of Mama Sick.

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