My Name is Emily and I Have a Depressed Son

I have known this for a while, but how much can you write…right?

I will not talk about how Tyler has described his depression to me to a ‘T’ without saying “depression”. Let’s just say he told me that he is sad with life most of the time.  Depression runs big in Grant’s family and I have had on and off Situational Depression throughout my life.  I can see that Tyler’s depression is clinical, I mean it would have to be if he is already displaying signs and he is not even five-years-old, right?  Unfortunately, we still believe he is too young to be in therapy, nor do we have the money but when he goes to school in the fall, perhaps there are some free counseling sessions we can take advantage of.

This morning he came into my bedroom where I was checking my email, drinking my coffee, waiting for the nausea to subside, etc.  He said that the episode of The Mickey Mouse Clubhouse was really sad.  Mickey and the gang said they did not need Toodles any more and then…he started crying, like full blast waterworks over the show that is supposed to come from The Happiest Place on Earth.  I got up immediately to comfort him and I woke Grant.  I got my coffee and some tissues for Tyler and Grant sat with his arm around him and we all watched.  I assured him that there would be a happy ending and sure enough, all of the characters realized that Toodles was their friend and that he was more important than any “thing” in their lives, and that nothing was more important than friendship. By this time I was of course crying too.  And then we all got up and did “The Hot Dog Dance” with Mickey and pals and everyone here went about their business.  Me to blog, Grant to shower, and Tyler to watch Curious George where I pray that nothing depressing is going on in George’s life.

To see that emotion pour out of my son…at such a young age…it is just too much for me to bear.  I must have been at least 12 when I first started crying over movies and television.

Our lives so terrible, no resources, so sick, sometimes I wonder…what is the hope for this child?

This program should be outlawed!

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About mamasick

Emily Cullen is a pen-name. I suffer from chronic illnesses and diseases which include Bipolar Disorder, Asthma, Diabetes and Fibromyalgia. I had battled Lupus and Rheumatoid Arthritis but there is no longer evidence of me having these diseases and my Rheumatologist has declared them to be "burnt out" of my system. I am separated from my husband, “Grant”. Our son, “Tyler” was born in September of 2006 and suffers from tics and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and is delayed in fine and gross motor skills. In my blog I seek to let sick moms know that they are not the only ones going through this, and to educate people about what can happens when one becomes catastrophically ill. I also strive to break down stereotypes of what a “Welfare Mom” is like. Anything that I have gone through due to being sick, is written on the pages of Mama Sick.
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7 Responses to My Name is Emily and I Have a Depressed Son

  1. Andy says:

    Oh, Emily!
    What a difficult thing for you to experience! Just remember that children are resilient. There is nothing you could do differently to produce a different result. Depression like that does not come from seeing your parents sad or sick. You are there, you love him, you do everything you can for him, and that’s the only thing that will matter in the long run. He will find his way. We all do.

  2. Holly says:

    I don’t have any answers, but I feel for you.

  3. meg says:

    I don’t have any answers for you and I feel funny commenting because I am not the most faithful reader more on that later. I do have a website for you that I find helpful in my classroom when “issues” come up . Click on a topic/issue on the left side and suggestions of books with reviews will pop up. I hope this helps.

  4. Mer says:

    I think it is good that he is feeling, good that he can talk aout it and good that he can express it. And good that he comes to yiu.
    It is heartbraking, but, it sounds like its going in the right direction

  5. Emily,
    My youngest has a very sensitive spirit and I think that can be a good thing (it is in him … he has always been very caring and compassionate). I would encourage the compassion rather than fret that it will destroy him. I know that depression can be awful. I struggle with it myself. But perhaps you, being aware of it now, can help him deal with it far better than most of us have been able to.

    Hang in there!

  6. Mrs4444 says:

    He’s sensitive, but I’ve seen other little ones who would be that upset about the same thing. I’m glad he knew he could talk to you about it.

  7. Caroline says:

    I agree with Beth. It is great that you are seeing the signs now. He will learn to cope. And, I believe he can thrive. Ya’ll, even with your disabilities are GREAT parents!!

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