So My Psychiatrist Went Off On Me

I’ve been seeing my psychiatrist since last August. She is a resident but I picked her because she was under the supervision of a psychiatrist who has a good reputation. The resident can’t do anything without her final approval.

When I met her this summer she said I was on too much medication (which I agree with) and she wanted to change some of my meds. So far the only things she’s done are to lower my anxiety med and increase my mood stabilizer. Not very many changes in the past six months and so it’s not very surprising that my depression and anxiety are the same.

When I saw her this past visit I brought Jacques in to help her understand that I have made no improvement and to give her some examples of this. We also mentioned that I was still having nausea even though I was now gluten-free because of the celiac disease so that was contributing to my mood.

She said she was at her limit with what she could do for me! “You want a magic pill, well there is no magic pill! Look, there are two ways you can go with this. You can go with ECT (that’s what they now call Electric Shock Therapy) or you can push through it and get better!” Meanwhile, sometimes I can’t get out of my house for two weeks and still feel sick to my stomach so what was she wanting me to push through and how was I to do it???

We were stunned at the mention of ECT. I don’t judge anyone for having it but I’d have to be suicidal to consider it, it is just not an option for me.

Then she said, “What about your son? Do you want his only memories of you to be you sick in bed?” She has never spoken to my son so she has no idea what our relationship is like. I have been very honest with Tyler. He knows that sometimes I can’t do things and we concentrate on the things I can do. More than once he has said I am the best mom in the world so I don’t think he is feeling deprived.

If I was in a worse frame of mine this certainly would have brought me lower and made me feel more hopeless.

At this point the head M.D. came in and Jacques said that the doctor had mentioned ECT for me. “ECT? No, you are not a candidate for ECT!” Then the Resident started backtracking and she said that we had misunderstood her!

The resident is graduating in April so I will never have to see her again, otherwise I would want another doctor.

I guess I will try my luck with the new resident and hope for someone who truly wants to work with me.

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About mamasick

Emily Cullen is a pen-name. I suffer from chronic illnesses and diseases which include Bipolar Disorder, Asthma, Diabetes and Fibromyalgia. I had battled Lupus and Rheumatoid Arthritis but there is no longer evidence of me having these diseases and my Rheumatologist has declared them to be "burnt out" of my system. I am separated from my husband, “Grant”. Our son, “Tyler” was born in September of 2006 and suffers from tics and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and is delayed in fine and gross motor skills. In my blog I seek to let sick moms know that they are not the only ones going through this, and to educate people about what can happens when one becomes catastrophically ill. I also strive to break down stereotypes of what a “Welfare Mom” is like. Anything that I have gone through due to being sick, is written on the pages of Mama Sick.
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9 Responses to So My Psychiatrist Went Off On Me

  1. Julie says:

    Graduating? I feel sorry for her future patients. What a quack! I’m so sorry you have that experience. It’s hard to find a good medical professional, I know. Wishing you better luck with the next one!

  2. Shelli Gordon says:

    You can and should write a letter to her supervising doctor about this visit and how you were treated and made to feel. She was unprofessional and crossed that line. She needs to be spoken to about this before she graduates and causes mental anguish to a very vulnerable patient.

    • mamasick says:

      I know you are right, Shelli, but I am dealing with so much right now, mostly health problems and getting insurance for my son, that I just don’t have the time to get into it. All in all she was a nice doctor…I have no explanation for her outburst that day.

  3. Amy Laurel says:

    HOLY SHIT! Pardon my language but that is inexcusable! Your psychiatrist has no right to talk down to you under any circumstances! You are already dealing with enough to need their help how could that possibly make anything better? I see that some people have mentioned writing a letter to her superior and I agree. If she will treat one person like this then why not another? If that is too stressful for you then don’t feel like you have to take it on. Just do what you need to take care of yourself.

    I’m so sorry that this happened to you. I’m outraged that this happened to you. I also can’t believe that she would go from barely lowering your meds, not trying anything new and then ECT?! That is really extreme!

    I would just hug you right now if I could, and if you were ok with that. I hope you find a better fit for your needs in your next doctor. All the best of luck. I will send positive thoughts your way.
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  4. Oh my god, I can’t believe that she said this to you. She is obviously in the wrong job and has no empathy or experience or pain or depression whatsoever. Please complain as speaking to someone else like that could cause them to harm themselves. Thanks for joining the #weekendblogshare

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